MikeReiner
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If you think I'm an idiot who should just shut up, say so.
I tend to wonder if anyone here is in the same boat.
I'm gonna admit right here that I have anger problems.
I can't tolerate anything that bothers me, I can't deal with things that constantly go the wrong way for me, and most of all, I hate people who get off on other's rage.
I actually would love to kill them, only the justice system saves them from my wrath.
So here I am, an 18 year old, living in my parents basement.
Whenever something just plain pisses me off, I want to hit something, put a hole in the wall, rip something to shreds. The problem is, I have nothing that I can do that with.
If I break a hole in the wall, I will get screamed at by my parents. (I didn't say that was unfair, I just said thats how it is) which leads to other nasty situations.
So if at any time I get pissed off or I just want to kill something, I have to sit here. I can't channel that into anything. Ridiculously loud heavy metal? no, doesn't do shit for me. I actually end up getting pissed at the music for never being heavy enough.
Killing shit in a multi player FPS? No, never works. I'm not good enough to ever satisfy myself, and I hate killing bots.
I know we live in a world where you have to suck up your beefs with other people, especially at work, but when your so pissed you can't even think straight, what are you supposed to do? Meditate? tell myself not to get pissed? yeah right.
All those stupid anger management classes treat you like a retard. They think squeezing a ball is suppose to help.
Unless the ball screams back at me and starts bleeding, it's not gonna make me feel better.
So what have I done so far? become an asshole. Ever notice how I call people out on their stupidity, treat idiots like idiots, tell people who complain about the same thing too much to go f*** themselves?
Yeah, thats where that rage goes.
Where does your rage go?
I tend to wonder if anyone here is in the same boat.
I'm gonna admit right here that I have anger problems.
I can't tolerate anything that bothers me, I can't deal with things that constantly go the wrong way for me, and most of all, I hate people who get off on other's rage.
I actually would love to kill them, only the justice system saves them from my wrath.
So here I am, an 18 year old, living in my parents basement.
Whenever something just plain pisses me off, I want to hit something, put a hole in the wall, rip something to shreds. The problem is, I have nothing that I can do that with.
If I break a hole in the wall, I will get screamed at by my parents. (I didn't say that was unfair, I just said thats how it is) which leads to other nasty situations.
So if at any time I get pissed off or I just want to kill something, I have to sit here. I can't channel that into anything. Ridiculously loud heavy metal? no, doesn't do shit for me. I actually end up getting pissed at the music for never being heavy enough.
Killing shit in a multi player FPS? No, never works. I'm not good enough to ever satisfy myself, and I hate killing bots.
I know we live in a world where you have to suck up your beefs with other people, especially at work, but when your so pissed you can't even think straight, what are you supposed to do? Meditate? tell myself not to get pissed? yeah right.
All those stupid anger management classes treat you like a retard. They think squeezing a ball is suppose to help.
Unless the ball screams back at me and starts bleeding, it's not gonna make me feel better.
So what have I done so far? become an asshole. Ever notice how I call people out on their stupidity, treat idiots like idiots, tell people who complain about the same thing too much to go f*** themselves?
Yeah, thats where that rage goes.
Where does your rage go?
