Eh, I've been hanging in there. Things have been pretty crappy lately, but it seems like they're finally beginning to turn around.
Oh dear, sorry to hear that. I know it's unlikely, but if we can do anything, just shout!
Eh, I've been hanging in there. Things have been pretty crappy lately, but it seems like they're finally beginning to turn around.
What's with all the moping around? Get off your ass and go do something YOU want to do. You're letting them get to you.
You know who you are. You know what you want. Tell em thanks but no thanks and get on with your life.
Now git!!!
This isn't something that can be fixed by simply "getting off my ass and doing something," I'm not just being lazy.
It's completely debilitating. [...]
I wish it were that simple.
I would if I could.
So don't you dare tell me I have no idea what you're going through. Trust me kid, I do. Sometimes you just got to say, WTF, and get going.
The feeling of not being able to get out of bed... I know that one. From about 2005-2008ish I slept 16+ hours a day. I would sleep during my 15 min breaks at work and through lunch. Waking up only to eat and work.
I still have suicidal thoughts and random memories a few times a week. My experience won't easily, if ever, go away. What I've learned is that it really is quite simple. Wait it out until the thoughts pass. I get in bed, lay on my back and try to simply relax and breath. Once they have passed, get out of bed and keep putting one foot in front of the other. It is indeed simple, and simple is the best way to deal with it. "Just keep swimming"
I would suggest seeing another 'professional' for the purpose of getting on an antidepressant. There's 14 days before the medication is at full swing, and those 14 days are going to be hard. As you move from the "can't do anything depressed" to "feeling better but still depressed", you cross a line where you're still depressed to the point of suicide, and you're 'up' enough mentally to act on it. Lay down, relax and wait it out. Get back up and put one foot in front of the other.
"Whether you think you can, or you think you can't, you're always right."
What if the thoughts never pass? I can't think of any time where they weren't there. Not even for a moment.
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I've tried probably ten of them. They all seemed to either do nothing at all or destroy absolutely all emotion, which I found to be even worse than being depressed.
Paradise Lost said:O Progeny of Heav'n, Empyreal Thrones,
With reason hath deep silence and demur
Seiz'd us, though undismay'd: long is the way
And hard, that out of Hell leads up to Light;
Our prison strong, this huge convex of Fire,
Outrageous to devour, immures us round
Ninefold and gates of burning Adamant
Barred over us prohibit all egress.
I suppose. I was speaking from experience there. I'm not any less miserable just because I'm out doing something. Actually, being out is usually worse because I tend to get really panicky around strangers, and it becomes way harder to deal with when I suddenly start crying uncontrollably in public.
The best I can ever get is a minute or two of distraction when I'm in physical pain