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Cabbs said:
What I should have done in high school lol.
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Meh. Seriously, if I could do HS over again, I would have lived a little more. Not a lot more, but I would not've been such a perfectionist. It got really tiring, and after a while, I was just competing with myself. Granted, it did help me get a $54,000 scholarship from the college I'm going to, though. But, I'm going to lay back a little more in college, for sure. As and Bs will be perfectly fine for me. I only need to keep a 3.0GPA to keep my scholarship eligibility.
 
dude_56013 said:
Meh. Seriously, if I could do HS over again, I would have lived a little more. Not a lot more, but I would not've been such a perfectionist. It got really tiring, and after a while, I was just competing with myself. Granted, it did help me get a $54,000 scholarship from the college I'm going to, though. But, I'm going to lay back a little more in college, for sure. As and Bs will be perfectly fine for me. I only need to keep a 3.0GPA to keep my scholarship eligibility.
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Your effort really paid off though.
 
I created an topic about this a long time ago when I found out about it.
 
dude_56013 said:
Meh. Seriously, if I could do HS over again, I would have lived a little more. Not a lot more, but I would not've been such a perfectionist. It got really tiring, and after a while, I was just competing with myself. Granted, it did help me get a $54,000 scholarship from the college I'm going to, though. But, I'm going to lay back a little more in college, for sure. As and Bs will be perfectly fine for me. I only need to keep a 3.0GPA to keep my scholarship eligibility.
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I went to an elite private prep school in New York City, which kind of thrust Ivy League upon me, not that I am complaining about that haha.

I do however wish the same thing that you do. Throughout my scholastic career, I worked my ass off every day to get the grades that I did. I partied quite a fair bit as well, but the amount of work that I did severely taxed my nervous system- I lashed out at my friends and family a lot... it was a mess. As a result, I act the way I do around people, which may not be for the best.
 
Cabbs said:
Your effort really paid off though.
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Definitely. I'm not one to gloat or strut around about it though. I'm very blessed to have gotten my scholarship, even if I did work my butt off. No regrets...I pretty much live by "everything happens for a reason", so if I was more lax in HS, I'd probably not have that great of an outlook for college right now.

Thelis said:
I went to an elite private prep school in New York City, which kind of thrust Ivy League upon me, not that I am complaining about that haha.

I do however wish the same thing that you do. Throughout my scholastic career, I worked my ass off every day to get the grades that I did. I partied quite a fair bit as well, but the amount of work that I did severely taxed my nervous system- I lashed out at my friends and family a lot... it was a mess. As a result, I act the way I do around people, which may not be for the best.
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Yeah. I've had my ups and downs, and I know it's directly because of school and the pressure I put on myself (not so much other people, actually). It kind of consumed me, and I would have really bad break downs every so often; so I've definitely vowed to be a bit more 'free' at college.
 
dude_56013 said:
Yeah. I've had my ups and downs, and I know it's directly because of school and the pressure I put on myself (not so much other people, actually). It kind of consumed me, and I would have really bad break downs every so often; so I've definitely vowed to be a bit more 'free' at college.
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I thought I was the only one that had those fits of self-destruction. I mean, I would literally shave all the hair off my head, get drunk and pick fights with everyone. Those types of break downs?
 
Thelis said:
I thought I was the only one that had those fits of self-destruction. I mean, I would literally shave all the hair off my head, get drunk and pick fights with everyone. Those types of break downs?
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Not physical like that, no. But I would have seriously bouts of depression (nothing suicidal) and anxiety and such. I also had enough of being "perfect" so much so that I ended up shoplifting and getting caught. It wasn't stuff I need even. I was under 18, so I had to do Sentence to Serve (8 hours of manual labor; we had to dig out fire hydrants out of about 4 feet of snow in an entire town (about 2,000 people; took the entire 8 hours)). So now it's been expunged from my record, but every time I go into the store or hear of something like it on the news, I still have flash backs. I basically broke down while sitting in the security office while waiting for my parents to come get me once they released me. It was the tipping point for me; when I decided I couldn't keep doing what I was doing anymore. A lot of it also had to do with my weight (which I've addressed in a thread a while back); a lot of me being a perfectionist had to do with covering up my downfall, which was my weight, so at my breaking point (the shoplifting thing), I decided to have weight loss surgery (if you read my other thread, I've tried many many things already) on July 1st and give myself a new, healthy begging to life. It's much needed.
 
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