I understand that as well. But its unfortunate that you have lost interest.
I actually never used pot when making music. It did not seem right. I did use it while listening to other peoples creations, and that was yet more inspiration. I created one song just to test my equipment, but another for my fiance. I can show you in another thread if you like, but keep in mind, the recording equipment that I had at the time is crap compaired to today. It was the best that I could pull off with a very weak computer, and a recording system that I pretty much had to build based on what I could find. In other words, the quality is crap.